Time

I'm the last of my friends to succeed, they're always passing over me I relate to end-of-autumn leaves, resisting, hanging on to their trees She refuses to fall but it's inevitable But I think I could use just one miracle Yellow flowers right under my nose It's my party and I'll send myself home The time I spend in my own mind could fill another person's life Coffee, tea, and favorite music Little brothers and dads who grew sick Inside the gates of hell and well-being is where you'll find the secret meaning I really hope you get it, I don't know it myself yet People think my hair's an off-red Didn't choose the color or choose to be exhausted Never been something you wanted But summer's my time so maybe I'm not so haunted I wear rings so my hands can feel tough And I wear mom's old clothes out of love I run cold, that's why I run into the arms of my friends I love hard, that's why all my relationships end The time I spend in my own mind could fill another person's life Coffee, tea, and favorite music Little brothers and dads who grew sick Inside the gates of hell and well-being is where you'll find the secret meaning I really hope you get it, I don't know it myself yet I don't like the optics No second options I must be locked in too much 'Cause I think it's careless to act like I care less Don't recognize my name on the bottles I pick up The time I spend in my own mind could fill another person's life Coffee, tea, and favorite music Little brothers and dads who grew sick Inside the gates of hell and well-being is where you'll find the secret meaning I really hope you get it, I don't know it myself Yet