rotten heart

Freckles damp, eyes are red Thought he loved me, that's what he said Getting older, but not wise I see dimples on my thighs And I want love, but I'm scared And I know I'm not prepared To feel real loss, or feel pain But I feel both every day I'm too fat, I'm too thin Not enough, never been Hair's too straight, lose some weight Is he going to wait? Hate my songs, am I strong? Am I doing this wrong I am drowning in all that I'm not Watch me fake it, then cry in the dark Rotten heart All my friends are far away Or they don't know how to stay And it's my fault, above all That I drop boys before I fall Really liked him, never cried But it wakes me up at night I'm too fat, I'm too thin Not enough, never been Hair's too straight, lose some weight Is he going to wait? Hate my songs, am I strong? Am I doing this wrong? I am drowning in all that I'm not Watch me fake it, then cry in the dark Rotten heart And I wrote this song after a bad day And tomorrow maybe won't feel this way But it's always there and it never ends Wanna rip him out, he's under my skin And I'm scared one day, when I'm old and gray I'll still feel this way I'm too fat, I'm too thin Not enough, never been Hair's not straight, lose some weight Is he going to wait? Hate my songs, am I strong? Am I doing this wrong? I am drowning in all that I'm not But I'm learning at each stop Rotten heart