It's useless

You stood there smiling Oh for the longest time I pretended that i barely cared But you knew that was a lie Oh i know that its useless You cant explain away your guilt You say Id never understand As I watch you slowly wilt From all the things That man does to you Who convinced you That this is ok? Its hard stepping into The light of another day After wishing for an easy death To come take you away Harder than confession Heavier than the sun Those big blue eyes asking me How I could have done Anything, so mean When I love you so