Lukewarm

I'm crying at the wheel You're sleeping in the front seat Things haven't felt the same But I still get sad when you leave If I think about it too much I get upset So I'll drink to swim my head Do my best to pretend That the thoughts aren't prominent I'm having trouble Distinguishing between permanent and repairable I think about the letter I sent in the mail last week It still hasn't been delivered Running my hand under the faucet Waiting for the heat to form Wonder if I should stop it I don't know how I'm feeling about what we have I know you're not on good terms with your dad I just want to be a part of your life You keep me as a secret I'm picking the lock with a knife Running my hand under the faucet Waiting for the heat to form Wonder if I should stop it Running my hand under the faucet Waiting for the heat to form Wonder if I should stop it Lukewarm I don't know why I keep having these moments Maybe it has something to do with the way we're hurting I haven't been eating I've been procrastinating All conversations and trying to believe But you're there in every future moment Is this a sign or aimless hoping? Can't picture my life without you You're so peaceful when you're sleeping I told you I'd tell you before leaving But now I don't even know what I want to do Running my hand under the faucet Waiting for the heat to form Wonder if I should stop it Lukewarm We had all these plans Chalk it up to unfortunate circumstance How do I know which decision is wrong? Try to abandon the thought but I can't What would happen if I gave you another chance? Am I giving up and moving on?