Goodbye (I'll see you again)

I step outside just to feel alive and walk towards the car My Keys are in the ignition But the engine just won't start(oh no) I guess it's okay I can't do this today I've got one foot on the brake and one on the gas I'm going nowhere but still I crash The mind isn't it funny? How one day you'll feel so strong Then the next you're on your knees crying screaming wishing you were gone How do I move on? I put this off because I can't cope No words express the internal sorrow To let you go is to dismember me But to hold on is to forever be Paralyzed In your web of lies You're so concerned with the facade you uphold How is it you can be so bold? But you can't acknowledge you too were wrong now you've done it and now I'm gone How can I do this on my own? I ask myself until I realize I was always all alone how many times can I ask myself To keep allowing you to put me through this Hell? I can't anymore Goodbye my dear old friend Maybe one day when I'm older We'll revisit this again But for now I'll shut this down Come up for air before I drown Because I'm drowning My heart is fractured Like broken bits of matter Floating through an empty vessel Carrying this weight for the both of us has been much too stressful It was never my burden to bear My heart my mind and my soul forever impaired There are no clouds in the sky But emotions flood my mind Like a downpour of pain Memories rush by I'm sure I had the time of my life But right now tears are falling like the rain Goodbye my dear old friend Maybe one day when I'm older We'll revisit this again But for now I'll shut this down Come up for air before I drown Because I'm drowning and I can't do that to myself Oh one day I'll see you in myself Oh and one day I will know you all too well But underneath the pain Your Demons can't hide They turn away They have no home in my mind Maybe one day you will hold more than this bitterness inside I hope one day these monsters flee residing in your mind But I can't wait around to see The good you may or may never be As much as it hurts me I remember nights when silence screamed so loudly When I held onto dreams that weren't what they seemed It tore me down It made me Numb It made me realize what I could become I wandered down a lonely road Almost gave up and went back home But realized the emptiness in those four walls was never a home meant for me at all Goodbye my dear old friend Maybe one day when I'm older We'll revisit this again But for now I'll shut this down Come up for air before I drown I can't stay This isn't safe Your reality and mine are not the same so maybe one day I'll see you again