Myself

They say sticks and stones may break my bones, But words were never meant to hurt, Yet here I stand, bruised by your voice, Doubting every single word. So it's hard to know for sure I do this to myself I put me through all this hell I don't know why This pain is what's keeping me alive You reload another round You point, you aim, you tear me down Or so you try ( yes, you try so hard) But your ammunition doesn't work The bullets aren't the part that hurts Not anymore... (they can't hurt me anymore) You twist the knife, but can't break through, This fortress high I've built for you. Though the pain is not there within, I still feel you under my skin. It's not the scars that tear me apart, But the way I held you in my heart. That's the hardest part I can't ignore this pain inside But what's even worse than you holding the match Is that I'm the one igniting it Oh I hate myself (myself) For loving you Even when you tore me down, I'd pick myself up, and place the crown right back on you I hate myself For holding on When I know it's only hurting me I wish I could be strong Oh I I do I hate myself You struck the match, I watched it burn, But it's the ashes that I yearn. I gathered them to build anew, A castle from a love untrue. But castles fall, and so do we, Why do I hold on to this misery? I'd never let anybody talk to me this way But for some reason when it comes to you I just stay in place I fall to my knees I pray so hard I need the strength to carry on And to mend my bleeding heart I know I can't keep holding on you're the knife that severs the rope Just one slip and I'll be gone Oh I hate myself (myself) For loving you Even when you tore me down, I'd pick myself up, and place the crown right back on you I hate myself For holding on To the shattered pieces of a love that's now long gone I hate myself (myself) Oh I do I hate myself For loving you Even when you tore me down, I'd pick myself up, and place the crown right back on you Oh I hate myself