On my own

Why do I give into love When it makes me feel more alone Never gave my self the chance to pickup My broken soul I had to learn how to handle it And now I give into abandonment Carry all my struggles I just gotta give it all to God Waiting for the next time that I gotta go and jog To talk to God and get the stress off my chest And now you know that I'm just like the rest When will my pain go away I'm feeling more and more Like I got nothing to gain So I just go to my room and write music I understand that nobody will listen But this is the way that I cope with my emotions I'm hoping that you'll understand what's wroten I've taken my pain And turned them into lyrics I know what I gained But I'm hurting under the surface Gotta lot more I've contained To myself I'm learning as a person It keeps coming back Don't worry bout me I know god has a plan I'm tired of sleeping all day I let my clouds turn to Grey I keep showing off emotions That I hid under the grave I just gotta take a break School isn't helping I'm tired of staying awake I can't explain my emotions And I'm sorry that I'm hopeless Don't mean to leave you scared But I've sang some sad songs I've wroten Why does it keep coming back I know I'm off the walls But I'm just so done with that My anxiety high I'm feeling more down low I keep wasting my time So I'll just watch you go I'm sorry if I'm dry I got some things that I know And honestly maybe one day I will show What I'm feeling but until then You will have to know the meaning to my songs I'm singing yeah Until the end