Only Better

No clouds in sight, but the ones that most concern me won't be seen A tempest rages behind apathetic looking green Mistakes past and potential linger "I'm sorry" seems like half of what I say They wait for me down corridors and chase me off the stage I cannot seem to run or hide away And they follow, and they get their way While I wallow, I'd sleep through every day "There's no escape for the weary" Does it excuse my behavior if I say I'm trying to disprove that theory with my restless sleep? Dream it's fleeting, not forever But there's no gone, there's only better And I swear that I am kinda, sorta headed that direction sometimes I swear the hardest part of getting help is saying we deserve it sometimes Most of the time we do And struggle with a pessimistic point of view that doesn't always lead me down a healthy path Laugh to hide all the pain, there's something wrong with my brain where I just want to be loved And I swear that I am kinda, sorta headed that direction sometimes I swear the hardest part of getting help is saying we deserve it sometimes Avoiding mistakes just means we played it too safe We are defined by our actions, not our hope "It's never too late" I hope is kinder to me than "good things come to those who wait"