Expressions

Music means everything to me It was there for me when i was weak Sometimes that means staying up late Is this what it takes to be one of the greats Working everyday to make mine a reality While Skipping out on the profanity I've been doing this forever its been hard When you dream for the stars You can only get so far Taking time with every line To me music is so divine Didn't know what I was doing this for I could've studied more Tried putting my mind on advancing through the pain But that was blocked by overthinking and all my complaining it all feels the same I went from walking around town to letting off some steam Now I'm putting all my thoughts into songs to accomplish a dream I spend to much time putting everything off Now I'm working on everything so a career takes off Had to stop beating myself up inside Instead I encourage myself to try This is not an option I'm doing this tilI I die My hopes starting to way thin Put myself in a pin, temped by sin Pouring this out is like a confession Letting my heart air out every session Devil keeps calling, I just kept stalling Faded too often Crowley couldn't bargain Words could also be used as weapons I use them to fight my demons What do I say with my dying breathe Deep down dodging them at different depths Feeling like a Winchester in the flesh Saw how you can heal through words It helped me figure out what hurt It was a fact I'd pursue rap Didn't care how the people would react As I get older the less I'm on my phone I'm more comfortable being alone Good thing I don't have to worry about that since I got engaged This is my passion I never disengage Some how I manage With all this baggage Things said put me close to the edge I've been taking up too much space Thinking am I in the right place Watching my pace In this rat race Everyone is lost in a fantasy Hardly are they facing reality Feeling like the lords testing me It's hard to keep my life balanced But these things happen I'm putting it all on the page I'm not defined by my wage It's getting easier with every breathe I feel depression less with every step Feel free as the wind blows I can't tell you when I'll die, who knows I'm scratching the surface With these verses Just another wordsmith Lost looking for what's his Getting scared of turbulence I'm stuck in the past tense It's been a hard couple of years I was taking steps crossing over my fears Getting distracted with fellow peers I've been trying to finish songs Left and right It shouldn't have taken me this long I've had plenty of time to write I can't promise happiness is a certainty I feel it more physically Music for me has always been the remedy She push's and pulls me back Never wanting me to leave Till she takes a piece of me They say love is a drug And that the release from it Will have you wanting more We're always looking for our next fix Don't think life's unfair, it's no against you I've gotta maintain my bridges This what I practice and preach Pass on a message for people to teach I put all my life's work in a speech