Relinquish

In the beginning he wrote with a pen and pad At a time when his mother left his dad He decided to write for a pass time It helped to remind him what he had A fire started in his heart, it lit up what was dark He was losing faith in the music and his forgetting the art Since he was a child he always felt neglected Went through the ropes looking for hope But he didn't get it All he had to do was connect But his gut feeling told him no Always sat around and mopped He reflected too much and keep it to himself There are things he just didn't know about time waits for no one and he's wasting moments Trying to figure out why he was broken Yeah time waits for no one and hes wasting time figuring out why he was broken If he could go back to before he was eight He would fix the fake feelings he created But he took it too far there's no stopping at this rate Was handed the truth straight and now has to wait After all these years he still has the same hate When he slept he woke up in cold sweat Insomniac always having panic attacks Easy to upset still hasn't found help yet He didn't ask for this all he wants is a reset Many saw him as a threat The set of cards are not in his favor Thinking he needs a savior Living with regret Isn't the best Thinking about things unsaid He keeps thinking what if things are better if I'm dead This is a story of my life A time when I hid behind the lines There a lot of things I didn't let go of And now I am relinquishing them You know I wish that I go back in time and spend it wisely Wish that you couldn't live without me Wish that I could let go so I wouldn't feel empty Wish I wasn't a victim of lust and envy Wish that I could go back and change the verdict so I wouldn't feel guilty Wish expressed myself more because I felt like I was barely breathing Wish that I could go back in time and fix every problem I hope I can live on even after my mom Because that's something I might not come back from I hope one day I can help people out of their depression Wish my father would listen to what we tell him but he remains the same Wish I could go back in time and help my mother through her pain Wish I could've been a sun that was bright instead of being the rain hiding happiness away Wish that I could've changed instead I stayed the same Wish that I would have took a different path, a different lane Any other way to make myself a household name