Balcony theory

I keep thinking I keep thinking how much do I really need to feel I keep thinking I keep thinking how much of me left is even real I kept hoping I kept hoping you would notice how I left the room I went outside you came outside you lit a cigarette played me a tune I cried I i cried,i cried, i cried i wonder if you played it for her first I keep thinking I keep thinking is it me or you who's the worst And how she's calling your name the last time I hurt her I was getting clean And I'm calling your bluff, wondering if you've ever really felt seen I've been making rash decisions in just thinking I could find the words And even I came to asking Jesus if he knew why this hurts I keep thinking I keep thinking how much left of this is even real. I keep thinking I keep thinking how much am I allowed to feel While she's calling your name the last time I hurt her I was getting clean And I'm calling your bluff, wondering if you would ever think of me Cause I keep thinking I keep thinking I keep thinking I keep thinking I keep thinking I keep thinking I keep thinking I keep thinking I keep thinking I keep thinking I keep thinking I keep thinking I keep thinking I keep thinking I keep thinking I keep thinking I keep thinking I keep thinking I keep thinking thinking