I Lost All My Friends

Catch me trading in my self-esteem For cigarette smoke, misogyny daydreams Little white lies from underweight guys Cutting ties with anyone who might Go the distance I'm not interested And in walks in the same mistake I always make and I'm not taking my meds again Since I can't remember when And I lost all my Watch me knowing how to shut them out Borderline till nobody's around Then I'm white wine crying, promise I'm trying: Loaded sighin' to anyone who might Just listen please, don't give up on me Romanticizing sad Is all I know, it looks bad I told you So defensive, I try my best to make amends Since I lost all my friends I ghosted my last therapist When she told me to make a list Of all the ways that I self implode I try my best to sleep through the night Then swear to god that I just might Find myself lying down in the road Underwater kicking fill my lungs I'm screaming "I just need someone" when I don't have anyone left 'Cause I lost all my friends I lost all my friends I lost all my friends (Underwater kicking fill my lungs I'm screaming) I just need someone when I don't have anyone left Cause I lost all my friends I lost all my friends I lost all my Catch me feeling 'round a pitch dark room All alone and only wanting you