against the grain

My life's a ticking time bomb You play the right song And all of the wires will spark Life's short then why it feel long? I'm trying to right wrongs While surrounded in dark Love myself I've been trying to get to that place No words said I would never come out of that place I don't know what to say anymore A thousand notes on my phone that's just stored I wanna get to sleep on time I been heavy headed got a lotta stress on my mind Medicating just sleep at all Plenty people fall But I can't lose what I used to die for I don't check the safety Just vibing lately The pressure trying to take me Won't let it change me Suffer more suffer less, it's all the same Had no choice still a voice yelling change My life's a ticking time bomb You play the right song And all of the wires will spark Life's short then why it feel long? I'm trying to right wrongs While surrounded in dark Love myself I've been trying to get to that place No words said I would never come out of that place I don't know what to say anymore A thousand notes on my phone that's just stored She said can you love me for the moment But it don't mean as much so why's it so important? You see through my lens, it's so distorted So why do you want me to against the grain? Again and again It's just pain, It's just pain It's just pain, It's just pain