the enigma

I swear that I was happy I had a fucking moment but I couldn't fucking capture it And I'm sorry for my actions It's usually my words that hurt but I'm also moving backwards Woah, woah baby love me tonight I don't deserve it but I'll try Baby I've been chilling inside the cave on the east From here I see the future so they treat me like a beast They say I swear I never knew it or the place that it's been lost in Self esteem within the walls so I've been giving up my conscious Trying to find a reason it hurts every time I breathe Different battle with the seasons, f*ck the cold and the heat They say nothing I connect with but surprised I wanna leave Everything resentful an enigmas what I'll be I'm just there I'm a statue crumbling I'm not here I'm all intrinsic so I guess that I don't care They all ignore or maybe I'm just too aware I do this for me and everyone I love Hiding in the shadows Ashamed of my name Ashamed where I come from And I'm sorry that I came I hate that I feel these things When I know what I've achieved If I was my bloodline I'd be proud watching over me Put so much effort in to breaking down these walls All odds against me and I'm still standing tall I carry weight that you could never imagine So why would I relate when you speak to me at all It's hard to know my worth when I cant picture where I stand I guess I'm on my own, no suppression when I land Two decades I've been living an absurd life But I'm still here I've had no option but to fight, so I fight Baby I've been chilling inside the cave on the east From here I see the future so they treat me like a beast They say I swear I never knew it or the place that it's been lost in Self esteem within the walls so I've been giving up my conscious Trying to find a reason it hurts every time I breathe Different battle with the seasons, f*ck the cold and the heat They say nothing I connect with but surprised I wanna leave Everything resentful an enigmas what I'll be