fuck getting better, I want to get worse

F*ck getting better I want to get worse Skip every meal cause I like how it hurts Wanna block all my friends Wanna drink myself silly Wanna sneak out at night And run so far away 'til my phone loses service so I'll crack the screen I'll douse my belongings in gasoline And I won't return until I've found my purpose If I die out there I deserved it Sell all my things and I'll backpack to Jersey Under a different name no one can hurt me I'll ignore everyone who reaches out I'm I'm busting out Cause F*ck getting better I want to get worse Skip every meal cause I like how it hurts Wanna block all my friends Wanna drink myself silly Wanna sneak out at night And run so far away 'til my phone loses service so I'll crack the screen I'll douse my belongings in gasoline And I won't return until I've found my purpose If I die out there I deserved it Maybe the reason that everyones leaves Is that I'm too hard to please I want to improve but baby I'm losing myself in the dark In the dark I keep getting worse But I should get better It's too fucking hard to keep my shit together I wanna give up I wanna break down I push them away then wish they were around So maybe the reason that everyones leaves Is that I'm too hard to please I want to improve but baby I'm losing myself in the dark 'Cause f*ck getting better I want to get worse I'll skip every meal cause I like how it hurts Wanna block all my friends Wanna drink myself silly Wanna sneak out at night And run so far away And run away F*ck getting better I want to get worse Skip every meal cause I like how it hurts Wanna block all m friends Wanna drink myself silly But I've got to improve if I want to love living I've got to improve if I want to love living