Better Off

I think about how happy I am quite often My mascara stays on my eyes I'm gaining weight, my hands don't shake, but to me it's no surprise Why the world feels so much lighter I don't fall asleep thinking about you anymore I finally have my own life to live Right next to my coat's where I hung up my habits I smile and then I forgive And oh, I'm loving life these days But oh, the cause is so forlorn My heart doesn't drop when I hear your name A rose can't grow without thorns I wish all the time I was my best with you I could be by your side and it'd make me feel strong But now I've been on both sides and I know it can't be done We're not friends, I was a mess And apart's where we belong I wish I wasn't better off without you I wish I wasn't better off without you Oh, how it pleases me to think you notice All the work I've put into myself My smile would be burned in your mind Some twisted revenge I've tried to let go And I try to be proud but my actions are low You wanted to stay but I had to go Oh, I'm loving life these days But oh, the cause is so forlorn I'll watch your green light from across the bay A rose can't grow without thorns I wish all the time I was my best with you I could be by your side and it'd make me feel strong But now I've been on both sides and I know it can't be done We're not friends, I was a mess And apart's where we belong I hate I was right, wish I was wrong this time I miss my best friend, but I always knew Now the sky's feeling bluer and the world is looking sweet And I wish I wasn't better off without you I wish I wasn't better off without you