If I Die Tonight

Swear to God if I died tonight I'd be gone righteous with the goddess light I ain't perfect but I want what's right Morals are split never up in sync But I believe it's bc of natural instinct That I bring everything but the kitchen sink That shit you be talkin stinks That why I'm lighting this aroma Rather put my mind in accoma Then spread disease like it's ebola You can't even afford a Motorola Pulling up in the Toyota your Gramps gave ya Tired of these sore losers feeling like there owed some fin money It's easy enough to make it if you assert yourself You practically act like you would hurt yourself Took me awhile to realize I was a problem child Thought I was doing something to make my mama proud Didnt even see the bigger picture having above the bedroom fixture I was lost in the mixture Of insanity I told god give it back that my sanctity He wasn't hearing nothing Then I realized it was within myself to become something The path is in our hearts we just gotta use it our minds to tell it and form it apart Ahhh A thought is so powerful to be positive so you can relish the good and not the bad You hang on to the small pleasures bc that's all you ever had And the huge ones don't feel right until the end I sit here and dream if you were here How would It be Would I be in an IV league school riding on that scholarship Wit a degree Would my Dad have kept faith in me And not the free bird basin in the tree Dolla signs is all they see Sometimes i do too (I'm blin It's ironic but its how they make us live I rather spend time with my wife and kids I spend my days away trying to get this pay Just to go home and have my son say Daddy please don't go away I look within myself to find the answers but the solution never stays I took a different path but I'm Making it count Externally I go hard on the inside everyone is soft You can put that Teflon on but does it make you a boss Or just slightly protected One shot to the head from a hater and that Teflon been neglected Blood spattered No longer mind over matter Just another fucking world tradegy Influence is what got you killed It's a fucked up thing but it's what really real They no longer care how you used to feel The blood has been spilled At least you still have your legacy right? What about your baby girl She thought daddy would protect her through the world? Show her the way to fame That woman took your last name And now your no longer in the game That's why on this rap shit I'm stay in my own lane