No Handouts

I aint got no handouts Ever since the day the ran out Talking bout my blood family But I'm a man now Knows whats right and wrong Know when I'm slept on Even if it's by someone I love When push comes to shove You the only one to hold you down I love you Mama and I hope to make you proud But what about all them days your child set away in pain Afraid to face the sunny shine Ray's Didn't have the guidance to be self reliant Didn't have the self esteem to be living out my dreams Didn't have a thing After my grandmother died Pops had to work everyday couldn't take care of me Moved in with my mom but Only had my sister's Don't even got me now All betrayed me in the worse way Listened to the here say Got robbed by some ppl I called friends really caught up in that gunplay Felt like I had to take my life to make it go away Only thing that made me feel right was this music so infused it with my emotions to produce This is how I take my pain on a beat I just abuse Do not try me in public bc I will use it I ain't got no handouts Ever since they ran out Talking bout my blood family But I'm a man now Know what's right and wrong know when I'm slept on I do this for my son Do it for the ones I love They ain't asking for no handouts Just me to be me And the man I am now Got ppl who look up to me Ppl who really f*ck wit me then I have the ones who always buck at me Serious shit I never talked about Been trampled one too many times After they came back and then once again they ran out Crossed enemy lines even with the hurt in my eyes They don't see it like I do and to me that is enough proof To take em out the loop Bc if they really cared then they would share in my success and ambitions We would be a team but all that is a phony dream Bc they want the same things envy me and never remain friends Or at least that's how it seems So Ill avoid the drama til the end My son and one on the way don't deserve it I know my life ain't perfect I'm striving hard to come up off the surface I'm lifting up I know you see my now And I know it's gotta make you hurting But it Makes my grandmama proud I ain't got no handouts Ever since they ran out Talking bout my blood family But I'm a man now Know what's right and wrong know when I'm slept on Even if it's by someone I love Always came with there handout Got what they want and ran out Talking bout my blood family But I'm a man now Know what's right and wrong know when I'm slept on I do this for my son do this for the ones I love