Pain Killer 3

I️ ain’t the first with this damn curse My mind craves for bloodthirst I️ wanna be better not worse man it hurts Shut up I don't care how you think my mind works These Images in my head fuels the pain F*CK NO drugs ain't in my vein I always talked about going insane I should have know I would get hurt playin these games Seems like everyone knows what's best for me Seems like everyone is putting me through stressed Seems like everyone is testing me F*ck everyone for making me depressed Try walking in on your girl having sex Now you know why my mind is possessed And get so fucked over with the side effects So everyone is fucking suspects Doctors say my mind is too complex Approaching me with different fucking subjects Until her car rolls over and wreaks Been told life will be nice if you live it right But that's not true it's been a fucking fight So I started to hate and it was a delight I bottle my depression inside ya Tears when I rap and write ya Rapping is a way I cry for help I can't keep this in anymore I want to die I always been lost in this evil lie I'm not the monster that people imply This place is dark and cold I need to be saved Demons have took me over I've been enslaved Seems like my tombstone been engraved But there's roads that still have yet to be paved But that's every humans determination I try but I realized I can't with my frustration Cause I forgot I'm not human I have no relation But we don't need to have that conversation I only stay true with my music it's my salvation I'm not a copy of my generation But truth be told were all weak against temptation