Good Enough (feat. Xsentrick)

I've been up and down, I've been in and out Scared of being alone, acting like I can do without I got a lot of pride, I got a bigger heart I've seen both sides of love and now I can't tell 'em apart I overcompensate-- not what you think it's for I used to be nobody, don't wanna be him no more Music is everything, without it, I'm just a man My shit gotta hit like them niggas in New Japan I get flashbacks of my youth, gotta tell you the truth I've been a victim of bullying, I done seen some abuse I was 7 years old, imagine someone calling you "faggot" And you don't even know what "gay" is? Looking at the kids on the news, bringing daddy's gun to school Thinking, "I could be that dude, bet you then they'll think I'm cool" But I ain't have the means or the heart, I would say I didn't care But if I did, I wouldn't have a story to share And not a single teacher would help That's why I rarely talk, I keep a lot of shit to myself I should probably get help, post-traumatic got me with this condition Thinking everybody got evil intentions I heard they tore the school down, I should probably be ecstatic But inside, part of me cries for the child in me that died So many questions left unanswered Maybe I wasn't cool enough or hood enough, I'll never know why I wasn't good enough Hold me, won't you hold me? Show me, won't you show me? Trying the best to be myself, I can't be nobody else I can't be nobody else It's this girl that I know & we've been cool for a while Yeah I like her a lot, I love making her smile She seems to love them fuckboys, and you know that ain't me You know, them fake kingpins but all they sellin' is tree And the crazy thing about it is she knows it I see she needs love & I should be the one to show it But now she got me feeling like a symp, walking 'round like a dummy I fell in love with a woman who's only in love with money I'm feeling like Jay Gatsby Would've given her the world if it meant she'll be my girl Then again I could do better, but I'm in too deep I should put my foot in Cupid's ass, bet he got a hell of a laugh I guess I'm just a sucker for love, and she's a sucker for thugs I mean, it's cool if you don't want no broke nigga, but who gon' take care of your heart? Picking me would be smart-- damn, tell me why I wasn't good enough? Hold me, won't you hold me? Show me, won't you show me? Trying the best to be myself, I can't be nobody else I can't be nobody else I like the man that I've become, I ain't got it all together Thinking back when I was young, I've really gotten better as a person I know I gotta work on my flaws Once upon a time, I thought I had to do it for y'all I don't wanna be somebody that I'm not Wouldn't catch me hanging out, standing on the block, pocket full of rocks I've realized that I can't be concerned with nobody's opinion Cause I refuse to be nobody's minion So to all of the kids that I used to know from school Kicked my ass on a daily just because I wasn't "cool" And to all of the girls that ever played with my feelings Cause I gave you something real that you was too afraid to feel I want you all to know that I've made up in my mind to be free To be every bit of the man that I was destined to be A final look at the past, and y'all can all kiss my ass Cause I don't really give a f*ck if you think I'm good enough