Monster

(Yo Peter make it sweet) Lately I've been thinking about being more disciplined Feeling something different, I'm just having new feelings Cannot comprehend all these changes in me Lowkey I feel like there is a monster in me I've been fighting against all of my desire, hoping the monster won't control me I've been fighting against all of Their rumors, cause I know really who I can be And all of this fighting really crushed my feelings So now I've been thinking why I couldn't accept this I think I saw her as my future I guess I was looking at the bigger picture I do not love her, that's what she kept saying And I really don't care, that's what she believed in Everything I did out of love wasn't really enough to convince her I needed her love Lately I've been thinking about being more disciplined Feeling something different, I'm just having new feelings Cannot comprehend all these changes in me Lowkey I feel like there is a monster in me I've been fighting against all of my desire, hoping the monster won't control me I've been fighting against all of Their rumors, cause I know really who I can be Now I can say it, my feelings are unstable Now I can feel it, this pain is really no joke And now I'm really scared about being unable To let my heart to someone, I don't want it to crumble Though it's been that way so long, fake it until you make it I don't wanna wait too long, now I will be just praying Hoping that one day I will let it go, No more thinking no more cause only God knows Cannot comprehend all these changes in me (cannot comprehend all these changes in me) Lately I've been thinking about being more disciplined Feeling something different, I'm just having new feelings Cannot comprehend all these changes in me Lowkey I feel like there's a monster in me I've been fighting against all of my desire, hoping the monster won't control me I've been fighting against all of Their rumors, cause I know really who I can be