See It Now

I see it now I see you going out On your own I keep close by Keep you in my sights But you don't know You chose your way You let me have no say Of where you go I can't help feel Like I didn't cut this deal You're numbing us over and over and over And the courage soaks into my veins Waiting for something to change But I can't stop from Reaching for the Liquid to keep me Sinking further And I Don't want to Don't have to But I want to And I have to And I Don't want to Don't have to But I want to And I have to I see it now She sees me going out On my own She keeps close by Keeps me in my sights Oh now I know I chose my way I let her have no say Of where we go Don't want to feel But she didn't cut this deal I'm numbing us over and over and over