Hate it (Different) sped up

Why you acting so different I notice Saying that you love me, but won't ever show it Then you go and say that you hate me I know it Addiction does empower me I never chose this Then you go and tell all your friends that it's over Never telling me no I'm not getting closure All of those thoughts of us growing older Never did I think that your love would be torture Falling for your tricks I was never even special Why you always lying to my face, like It's incredible All those times you told me that you love me wasn't genuine Girl I love you so much every time you're scared you hold my hand Looking at our pictures then I fell in love again Why you always capping baby know you didn't feel the same Know you didn't feel the same way I guess I'm the one to blame Holding me accountable know you'll always hate my name Giving me fuel I'm a make it to the hall of fame Stacking up my racks I will never ever be a lame No you're not in the frame I'm drawing a new picture Really saw you in my future now you can not fit there And I'm taking all these pills And I'm looking for a thrill Hoping I can finally deal with all these feelings Girl you finally helped me heal All these aches and mental ills I've been hiding my real feels it's been killing me In the morning I got feelings pouring Pour a purple cup knowing it's the wrong thing I just wanna numb my feelings Knowing it'll kill me Knowing it'll end me I got ten racks hiding my real feelings Freestyle shit when I walk into the building All this weight on my shoulder body building Why you playing games Fortnite towers tilting Why you acting so different I notice Saying that you love me, but won't ever show it Then you go and say that you hate me I know it Addiction does empower me I never chose this Then you go and tell all your friends that it's over Never telling me no I'm not getting closure All of those thoughts of us growing older Never did I think that your love would be torture Falling for your tricks I was never even special Why you always lying to my face, like It's incredible All those times you told me that you love me wasn't genuine Girl I love you so much every time you're scared you hold my hand