Do I Exist (feat. Sarunas Brazionis & Garrett Haag)

Have you ever felt all this pain inside When you wake up one day and all your life is a lie You never wanted this and when you try to escape it A million hands reach out wanting you reined in You wake up beside a total stranger Your family feels like it's someone else's Your bed your clothes// your home are tainted Your friends stare at you with unfamiliar faces You are confused, you find the solace in your sound You know you wanna fly but you're bound to the ground You try to tear the ropes but they're tightly tied And the dual realities start to collide I am the tumour in my head My mind is split into shatters My alter ego wants me dead But I don't think that it matters There's no way out I feel I'm broken Can't heal my demise What is it like to be living two lives? A hypocritical wretch overgrown with lies The contempt of the people whose beloved died Cannot match the hatred of the voice inside They hate everything that you stand for They hate that you're not what they want You're nothing but a trash can for rejected thoughts A misfit, a pariah, a sequence of n0ts I am the tumour in my head I am the infinite darkness My alter ego wants me dead But we're unlikely to part ways Mind blows up I cannot soothe her I don't know how I can last tremolo Will she take away my future Like I took away her past I feel I'm broken Can't heal my demise Mind knows thoughts unspoken Doors close walls have eyes Do you really think that you exist? Schizophrenic with a story twist Do you think that you have lost your mind Shut up the voice inside Remember when we fell from grace You watched it from another place? You really think you were not there Stop pretending - you did not care Remember when we fell from grace You were in another place? You're acting like you didn't care Do you know that you were there? Do you really think that you exist? Schizophrenic with a story twist How does it feel to destroy your life Exemplary worker, mother, wife Is that the life that you came for? Is that the life that you want? You're a psycho with a twisted mind Screaming from the inside I feel I'm broken Can't heal my demise Will I take away your future Like you took away my past Have I really felt this pain inside Were we really living separate lives Did I make up this whole story twist Do I really think that I exist?