Lie to Myself

Ooo im just finding myself Something that I gotta do by myself Ooo why do I try to be healthy? Saying imma quit soon lie to myself Ooo fighting myself Something that I gotta do by myself Ooo Why do I hide myself? Saying that I'll make it soon lie to myself Lie to myself (lie to myself oooo) Lie to myself (Lie Lie) Lie To myself Lie to myself Ooooo Ooo im just finding myself Something I don't gotta do by myself Ooo now imma try to be healthy? Saying I can't quit soon lie to myself Ooo fighting myself Something I don't gotta do by myself Ooo Why do I hide myself? Saying that I won't make it soon lie to myself Is this what you wanted to see? Plotting my ruin and run up on me? Is this what you wanted to see? I was praying for you are you praying for me? Is this what you wanted to see? Brokenness is my new regular dawg I got videos for you I show to attorneys on introduction to prove that I bleed This is n32g None ofy'all realer than me I shook a man's hand like before we get started there's something I'd like you to see (Bleed bitch, bleed) I can explain.... But why would bother I wouldn't want anyone's empathy thinking I'm just justifying the blade They Judging me based on reactions to someone Invoking my rage Ain't it a shame Taking my son me from based off a video of me reacting in pain Grayson if I have to lose you just know itll all be okay I don't have the answers to any of this but I do have the faith That Jesus will bring you back to me in his time I fought for kid I'll just raise you from here if I have to and Grayson I love you despite what they say just know that won't change