Visceral

I try to void All the feelings I used to know I feel like I should just let them flow This time And all the fear it turns to dread Again As I sit right on the edge With this visceral feeling again You've been a subject I could think about At times Wish I could say that you're a beautiful sight To see But that's a plus compared to what's inside Curiosity All I can do for now is sit on this edge And this visceral feeling again Saw you again, today You weren't there when I came by Contemplating should I turn around But I guess it's just not my time