Last Time

The hardest thing I've ever done is stifle my words I wish I could've told you I was prideful you served, But the memories will linger, the title's you worked for Remain true, you were my idol at first, But now you're just a legend, your presence left us, I reckon we've, Second guessed every single lesson that beckons text, So never, lessen your pace, And don't leaden your steps, when you're depression is F-U-C-K-ING you up, My next move, is to be where you need us And I'm sorry that I never made the effort to visit when you were sick, Just another way for me to treasure the minutes that you had lived, I know I feel this instant regret, I felt the distance come between us, equidistant to death, That's the part that saddens me most, Imagine if the moment arose where we'd fathom the hope; It wouldn't even matter if I'm there in spirit, But who was I to think that? Wouldn't even matter if I repaired the bridges Just so I could slink back, (Slink back) But I all I really know is the goodbyes are real, And I regret not telling you, So goodbye for the last time, last time So goodbye for the last time, last time How was we to even know that this would be the last visit This would be the version of me in which I'm marked cynic Marked image created from the bottle that I can't finish, Started to diminish, when the demons came to pass limits See my heart no longer beats in a rhythm when the bass kicks I make shit, up to survive on the daily inside of this matrix, A fixed, mentality is what has driven me to be so fake with, My peers, I steered close to the depths, every idea posed as a threat So what I fear most is regret, so in a way I negate this, But I've only gone and fallen in a cycle of abuse, so am I liable? Or do I stifle the excuse to take the blame for my own doing I've been idle, been recluse To show you all the reason we're entitled