dont wanna see u

I don't wanna hear a word you say don't wanna hear the lies All the back and forth it breaks me down like every single night I won't respond to your texts 'cause it'll end in a fight I'm breaking down I'm a mess can't turn my wrongs into rights I tried yeah I swear that I tried My time yeah you wasted my time I don't plan on staying here and growing old 'Cause in the end you die alone I don't ever wanna see or feel or hear from you again I guess this life we built together was nothing more than pretend I don't want see you in public I don't want see your friends It goes to show that everything that's good in life has to end And I know I got my problems yeah I'm fucked up in the head But that don't mean you gotta leave me here with everything you said I'm sick of living with my thoughts I might just fill my brain w lead And after everything we been through all I'm left with is regret All these cuts on my wrists and my thighs tell the story Of the girl that once loved me but left in a heartbeat Every apology couldn't take back all the words you said Well what did you expect no I don't wanna be friends And I know I'm not perfect but I'm on a better path But I've been tryna be optimistic I'm tired of feeling sad I don't wanna reminisce about the memories we had I'm tired of feeling love for you I wanna leave that in the past I don't think I can I'm taking shots in my bed I'm saying f*ck my friends They're never there in the end I realized I'm the only person I can rely on But I still capture every moment that I can with this Nikon I got these Polaroids inside my room they keep me sane I take this medicine to balance chemicals in my brain I fall in love with every girl I meet I swear I'm insane All I want is to be happy but it can't be obtained I don't ever wanna see or feel or hear from you again I guess this life we built together was nothing more than pretend I don't want see you in public I don't want see your friends It goes to show that everything that's good in life has to end And I know I got my problems yeah I'm fucked up in the head But that don't mean you gotta leave me here with everything you said I'm sick of living with my thoughts I might just fill my brain with lead And after everything we been through all I'm left with is regret My plate keeps stacking up I'm acting up off drugs I swore I kicked My life keeps switching up confused as f*ck I'm stuck inside a ditch I know I messed it up I act impulsive Momma I'm still a kid I'm too broken I can't be fixed I just need two more then I'm lit Yeah I'm sad as f*ck I mask with drugs I don't know I can't quit Can't control me you don't own me if you try ima get pissed I don't even try to hide the paraphernalia in my crib Never sober on my shift Get my bag and then I dip I don't wanna see you I don't wanna hear you I don't wanna see you Ever again