Feel Alive

I used to be depressed without even knowing cause I kept it repressed Haunted by solitude, misery thoughts intrude, was lonely Myself against the town I lived in no way I'd make it out alive I'm glad I did survive so f*ck you now I have left goodbye, goodbye I need to teach myself, I'm learning how to let go No point in holding a grudge, that's how I die slow Secluded in my room, not being exposed to the world A childhood filled with gloom, just put me out of my misery Had no purpose, had no fulfillment This isn't a place for me to grow up I'm clueless, I'm lonely, I'm bored too I fucking hate this place I want a social life True friends that will stay by my side and I want to feel alive I'm done living a sheltered life inside I used to be depressed without even knowing cause I kept it repressed Haunted by solitude, misery thoughts intrude, was lonely Myself against the town I lived in no way I'd make it out alive I'm glad I did survive so f*ck you now I have left goodbye, goodbye I want to get rid of these feelings of frustration and resentment And boredom depression in this shitty town I want to find purpose fulfillment be exposed to different life Experience excitement nothing can keep me down Enough is enough, that's almost 14 years That I will never get back, but now I'm finally here That place I left behind, I found a purpose to life Everything redefined, I'll never be confined again I want a social life True friends that will stay by my side and I want to feel alive I'm done living a sheltered life inside I used to be depressed without even knowing cause I kept it repressed Haunted by solitude, misery thoughts intrude, was lonely Myself against the town I lived in no way I'd make it out alive I'm glad I did survive so f*ck you now I have left goodbye, goodbye Your boredom may be related to depression If you experience the following symptoms Feeling hopeless, feeling sadness, evading opportunities for stimulation Blaming yourself for your boredom Boredom motivates some individuals to rediscover a hobby Explore a new interest, meet new people, promote self-reflection But for those who are clinically depressed Boredom can be a pit of despair Because it gives the brain an excuse to drift toward negative thoughts Making the depression worse