Dead Inside

And I roll up my sleeves and I button my shirt I get ready for work, even though I'm feeling like dirt It's a realization to me I won't be chasing my dreams I never thought I'd give it up, so easily Time after time and you're wondering why You decided to try to take a risk Maybe it's so because you got old And you had so much hope That you just had to let go Cuz if I had to decide whether to live or to die I would try to find a minute of time To remind myself that didn't get where I was at by giving in It's a struggle to win, when your already dead Dead inside Like a friend who would lie to take advantage of a situationship Dead Inside Like you're remembering why you don't trust anyone with anything And I, go on to believe you're a stranger to me I wouldn't call on you to settle things And just, wherever you is, I couldn't forget That I couldn't forgive you for everything that you did I'm praying at night that I'm escaping this life I'll say that I tried to take it just one day at a time But one day of my life is an infinite time Where I sit and remind myself how I'm victim of lies Cuz if I had to decide whether to live or to die I would try to find a minute of time To remind myself that didn't get where I was at by giving in It's a struggle to win, when your already dead Dead inside Like a friend who would lie to take advantage of a situationship Dead Inside Like you're remembering why you don't trust anyone with anything And I, roll up my sleeves and I button my shirt I get ready to hurt like the depths of hell I will burn The closer I get, I know I have no regrets I just have to confess that I took the time to repent You know I always believed that the pain inside me Wouldn't stay it would leave when I set myself free And for whats it is worth, I just want to be sure That the reason I'm leaving doesn't go unignored Cuz if I had to decide whether to live or to die I would try to find a minute of time To remind myself that didn't get where I was at by giving in It's a struggle to win, when your already dead Dead inside Like a friend who would lie to take advantage of a situationship Dead Inside Like you're remembering why you don't trust anyone with anything