Downward Spiral

Everybody's walking in a downward spiral Everybody's walking in a downward spiral A lunatic encaged in his own brain Makeshift thoughts taught me survival in this game I might as well keep aim Cause if I give up now I'll never change Who am I to blame I developed an interest like a prescription So easy to O.D. its hard to feed my addiction A victim to my own crimes so why the hell am I living I share my trust with people who care but apparently too much And caring is now back stabbing my gut For all the fucks who decided to take the lies and the blame I can't erase that shame But I take each day like I'm living in hell as it swells in my veins This is what I portray as I gain the respect in my name So for this I take the frown off my face Stand up to surround my anger and rage To conquer this this game with all of my pain Making a change for myself that no one can break Everybody wants to step on me Confused with life who am I supposed to be Feeling suppressed by all the pests And nobody sees what this shit has done to me Who am I supposed to believe Everybody's walking in a downward spiral Everybody's walking in a downward spiral Loneliness has set in as my sedative Music drains the thoughts which stops the pain Again I made the same mistake and put faith in my brain Still I wrap myself in a straight jacket Refusing harm from my insane habits But again I break my mental state Lose control of myself and fade away Until my brain displays of an image of a gift I had in place Finally my life makes sense But it's too late to save Everybody wants to step on me Confused with life who am I supposed to be Feeling suppressed by all the pests And nobody sees what this shit has done to me Who am I supposed to believe Everybody's walking in a downward spiral Everybody's walking in a downward spiral He grew up in a broken home with loaded folk Learned how to hold his own by choking throats His only hope was to keep his dome afloat And reap what begun to sew He started to load his clothes into a garbage bag Taking all he had and called his dad but through all this laughed Made a smirk and called him fat Then after he saw this man and the way he lived He knew things would be a different state of bliss And that began to change this kid Alcohol cut his brain in fifths and shared depression with laziness Moved on to engrave his wrists and after all of this he remained with him Learned life was a crazy bitch and hated it He needed maintenance on his life of shamelessness but no one gave a shit Could you blame this kid Always stepped on and no one had faith in him So he scraped his wrists of all the wounds and made this fit Everybody wants to step on me Confused with life who am I supposed to be Feeling suppressed by all the pests And nobody sees what this shit has done to me Who am I supposed to believe Everybody's walking in a downward spiral Everybody's walking in a downward spiral