Joking

This is a story of devotion I'm hoping that you could notice I walk the path of the chosen My heart isn't always open But I've been building my body With better thoughts than it's fighting But I think if I keep trying It might remember it's dying You been listening close So if I could share a quote And deliver it to you private Do you think you'd wanna buy it I hope you don't think I'm joking I hope you don't think I'm joking I hope you don't think I'm joking I hope you don't think I'm joking I got some issues, Dan, I think I need some counselin I need to keep from bouncin' off the walls when I get down some A strange theory, no string theory, no strings No wins, scary as f*ck I can't carry enough I have been to a place that'll never end It's a space where there's gentlemen who pretend Because men that are gentle sin, can I Bend an ear before I bend at the knee? I got confessions of recollection contestin' my chi I got suggestive acceptance, impressive definitely I always question if I'm expressing my best in my speech Clear the congestion with evanescence and press on my tea Because protectin' a question look like projection to me I feel rejection and I don't guess, it's directed at me There's no connect with repression, it doesn't bless what I see Do I believe in these beats or do I believe in a beast? Damn, what happened to believin' in peace? This is a story of devotion I'm hoping that you could notice I walk the path of the chosen My heart isn't always open But I've been building my body With better thoughts than it's fighting But I think if I keep trying It might remember it's dying You been listening close If I could share a quote And deliver it to you private Do you think you'd wanna buy it I hope you don't think I'm joking I hope you don't think I'm joking I hope you don't think I'm joking I hope you don't think I'm joking I put my heart and soul in every soul that I keep I keep it silent, consolin' soldiers controlling a beat I try to hide my excitement so as to know that it's me But it surprises me when I decide to show what I see I feel the need to relieve, lot of us wanna relive How I'ma know what it be, nobody know what it is I learned depression and sex are like twin flames They gotta go insane They strain, collect names, derange Rearrange, and change course Just to keep the passion at the door Just to have a laugh at something more? I learned that distance mixed with love over time is crucifixion Mixed with grudge plus divine is unusual The kids will fix it, switch this up I could rub you with Vicks if the sickness tricks it Licks it, scrub, extra kisses in kitchen with biscuits, uh But as I sense the shade I catch fire and shift dimensions Knowin' none of this is this expensive This is a story of devotion I'm hoping that you could notice I walk the path of the chosen My heart isn't always open But I've been building my body With better thoughts than it's fighting But I think if I keep trying It might remember it's dying You been listening close So if I could share a quote And deliver it to you private Do you think you'd wanna buy it I hope you don't think I'm joking I hope you don't think I'm joking I hope you don't think I'm joking I hope you don't think I'm joking Hi Nate, it's me, it's Grandma Could you give me a call back when you get a chance? It's important