Eeyore's Gloomy Place

I'm so so tired (want to sleep) I won't sleep (don't want to dream) My whole life in arrears Just a kid with adult fears Need a lift need a loan Need to go home, define home Away from the weary faces of my peers Down fall their crocodile tears And it's no solace at the end of the day I hang my keys by my bed And all the debt to you I could never repay You might owe me money But I owe you your time And I don't want to be your burden You've still got an unspoiled life I'm alone without you I'm alone when I'm with you I'm alone when I'm in bed I'm alone when I'm with friends I'm alone in the Valley I'm alone in alleyways I'm alone with night terrors I'm alone everyday At a party talking about psychiatry Someone says "BPD's tricky cause it's just the way you think" So does that mean there's nothing wrong with me And there's nothing to medicate I'm not a good person That's just who I am College made me stay up all night To stop hearing people talk about me To stay in numbing reverie Sums of the actions taken against us Bumping into other complex bodies I'm scared to bump into you It'll take a toll to love me It'll take a toll to love me It'll take a toll to love me It'll take a toll to love me