pretend

I can't even feel right And I can't comprehend How you sleep at night It's hard to breathe now My lungs are tight And I'm drained of any fight Don't wanna live this life So I just lay in bed With all the thoughts rolling round my head Try to distract Don't know how to act What's fake What's fact I'm in a constant state of confused Be careful or you might get used I just wanna feel something So I play pretend Try and convince myself I'm ok I sit around again I'm feelin down again Losing all my drive I sit and cry again I wonder why again I'm forced to be alive I don't feel real anymore I don't feel real And I'm so tired And I can't feel I play pretend I play pretend I play pretend When will it end when will it end When will it end I'm 21 now I'm already over it I'm 21 now But I haven't aged or grown one bit I'm 21 now And I still can't seem to fathom this I'm 21 now And I don't know how I'm gonna make it