still waiting on your call

Waiting on your call I know that I'll answer Love fills my lungs with cancer I'm waiting in the dark sitting on my bathroom floor And I know I shouldn't call you anymore I need to learn to shut my mouth Until I get it all figured out There's no sense in going on and on If it might just end up that I'm wrong So I'm still waiting on your call Doesn't matter whether or not I fall And the ground feels so soft though it makes me bleed And somehow I convinced myself that you're all I need I just need something to hold on to So I make up all these thoughts and dreams about you I know I shouldn't but I just can't help it Cause if I don't then I'm neck deep in the darkness So I'm here waiting on your call Though I know you won't call at all You're all that I need And saying that I'm sitting here watching me bleed I guess I didn't change for you I didn't change for me Did I even change at all if I don't know who to be My eyes are wide open but I can't see The girl that I am is she even me I've changed a lot since all those days And you wouldn't know cause I didn't stay You're not the girl you were before Neither am I and maybe now you'd like me more I just keep writing songs and singing Cause if I don't then I won't know what to do with these feelings I wish that they would all just go away But I guess they're here to stay