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Gums always sore waiting for my teeth to fall out Always bringing up some shit I probably shouldn't talk about Got all these thoughts running through the back of my mind Circling like sharks The blood thirsty kind Writing stupid shit like Why's peace so hard to find Thought I wanted love but I dont know I guess I pined I guess I pined Not sure what to do Going through the motions Honestly at this point don't even have notions I'd cry myself to sleep if there were any tears left to cry I let them all fall then I wonder why I'm sinking and I'm drowning and I'm finding it hard to breathe I'm failing and I'm losing hope just wishing I could believe Can't comprehend my own thoughts It's all I ever think about How I don't wanna be in this world I'll never get to figure it out What the hell is wrong with me Why am I even here To try and live happily To spread the word to every ear To live to the fullest each moment till death is near Now I'm doing none of those My body aches full of fear I'm so tired and I'm exhausted Cause these thoughts in my mind but I can't come off it I hate this feeling but I love to feel If I numbed it would I still be real You're telling me to set goals Find something to live for But goals are something I don't have Don't wanna do this anymore I don't think you understand You're telling me to try Only reason I'm alive's cause I don't want to die It's funny how death anxiety can be so vital Suddenly so uselful when I'm feeling suicidal My f- up yin and yang keeping me in line One more cup of coffe and I'm sure I'll feel just fine Sometimes I feel strange in my own skin Like I shouldn't exist Like I don't know who I am Gotta hide my identity Especially from myself Don't worry baby Put my feelings back on the shelf Dusty now I'm coughing and I choke Lipstick stains and the smell of smoke I feel so desperate but I'll never stoop so low Always driving fast Gotta take it real slow My closets too full There's no room for me in it Can't seem to catch my breath Please give me a minute Feeling claustrophobic in this space I'm filled with dread Need escapism cause my mind's a prison Want out of my head I want out of my head I'm so tired and I'm exhausted Cause these thoughts in my mind but I can't come off it I hate this feeling but I love to feel If I numbed it would I still be real