DND

Put my phone on DND light one up bitch I’m stressin Grab a pint of Henny vibe alone not to be messed wit I been thinkin bout the fake love that I’m gettin they coulda kept it An How I gave that girl my heart and really shoulda kept it I done Took a lotta L’s, lotta lessons, where’s my blessing Conversations with the sky late at night shit been hectic Losing the ones I loved way too soon I wasn’t ready I can’t sleep naw I can’t eat some days be gloomy so depressing I get so much Negativity and still tryna be a better me Why they hate me for tryna get to where I wanna be I was runnin wrong till I hit about like Seventeen Mama had to go for better living so I had to be Everything I wasn’t, had to grow up real fast Get up and work a 40 week an still make it to class Graduated high school some ain think that I would pass After that I changed my route to chase a different bag Thas I dropped out of college dropped the books for the mic Can’t no degree fund the lifestyle that I’m tryna life like I gotta take care all my peoples so I’m tryna get right Make my own road to better Livin I’m tryna take flight I Had to realize how many don’t really f*ck with me An when I’m up I don’t want Em tryna f*ck with me It ain hard just to keep shit a buck with me Some want my place so I keep the 9 tucked with me An I know It’s some niggas throwin dirt the tryn Shake up with me Some of my day ones that I trusted they changed up on me I be stayin to myself don’t say wassup to me I’d be alone in my own world if it was up to me I’d rather be alone then live accompanied by snakes I gotta get up from the bottom do whatever it takes I Lock myself up in the booth lemme lone I need space Where was u at when I was down or when I needed a place I was hungry starving broke niggas ate in my face I had to get shit on my own I be tired with aches Comin for all I deserve I’m talkin gas no breaks Don’t wanna talk don’t need to speak don’t need to conversate Said u was gonna ride for life where the f*ck was you Filled me up wit a lotta shit that wasn’t true Couldn’t believe the shit I hear thought it wasn’t you But it was I'm so confused like what I done to you Lately I be slipping in my thoughts and I know that I can’t have that I poured out my heart too much my pain they start to laugh at I gave my heart to the wrong bitch kinda need to grab that It’s a lot of love I gave out I wish I could have back I know that I fell off but believe I am gon clap back I was on the darkest road yeh I was on a bad path DND PTSD I hate when I have flash backs Carry so much weight on me like bricks up in my back pack yeh