do (not) resuscitate

If you're hearing this it's way too late Welcome to the downfall of a broken man's mental state I've been beaten up so much That living feels so out of place And you don't know the pain I've felt And I've tried to give you a taste But you don't want it So you don't see it We hide behind The shade of reason But I was left here To fight these demons But rounds are empty And they'll clip the meaning Only if they knew about it Only if they knew about it Only if they knew about it Only if they knew about it Please don't try to Save me I know what made me Dark thoughts escaping I'm waiting For love Please don't try to Save me I know what made me Dark thoughts escaping I'm waiting For love Yeah And the love gotta come from me But I don't think that's happening With all my insecurities I'm looking at the paramedics Hoping they just let me be Cause one more breathless minute could Be the fucking end of me I'm sorry all I brought you all Some strangers in their uniforms come running to my final drawl But I went too far For most of y'all Cause taking my own life was Always in my protocol Please don't try to Save me I know what made me Dark thoughts escaping I'm waiting For love Please don't try to Save me I know what made me Dark thoughts escaping I'm waiting For love