i've been feeling (suicidal)

I've been feeling suicidal I hate myself I'm my own rival Cause I've been feeling suicidal I left my note right by the bible Haven't spoken to god in a while I wonder if he'll pick up for his child I don't know why I call with denial But lately what I'm feeling feels final I've been feeling suicidal I hate myself I'm my own rival Cause I've been feeling suicidal I left my note right by the bible And I don't think I'm that far off i hate myself for getting lost Thought I could just stand up strong But you and I both knew I'd fall And I don't wanna go back to my ways I've been in a crisis almost everyday God don't judge but look at what he made Please don't try to tell me that everything is okay Cause I've been broken way too long And you just watched and dance along This the struggling artist favorite song I've been feeling suicidal I hate myself I'm my own rival Cause I've been feeling suicidal I left my note right by the bible I've been feeling suicidal I hate myself I'm my own rival Cause I've been feeling suicidal I left my note right by the bible