02/24

I need some sleep I feel weak I'm 12 pills in my head's on ten and I don't really feel like me The text I sent, to my girl it went Saying, I don't really want life, I just wanna blow my gah damn brain to my feet" Cause I feel I don't know you Look at this pain I go through This isn't how I should show you I feel like it's my last move I know you don't love me I feel you did something You chose that life over me Out all night getting cups for free This shits overwhelming God my love needs helping Without her I am not me So I guess I'll pop these I popped 12 so she called 12 The cops said that they could help I told them I need to help myself Then I sat and thought to myself I've been going through some pain, I know that I needa change I got this pain in my brain, I know that I'm not the same... I've been going through some pain I know that I needa change I got this pain in my brain I think I'm going insane Everyday it feels like rain When is it gonna change Only got myself to blame All these things are in my head I can't even go to bed I'm hurt bad I'm fucking sad Everyday feels like the last When is this pain gonna pass I asked God to take me back But I guess he turned his back I've been going through this pain... Ended up in Seton Thinking what am I thinking Shook hands with the doctor He said,"you alright sir" I said, "I don't really want life" "All my life I've had to fight" With this mental disease It's deeper than deep I suffer from depression anxiety I wanna be me but I can't be me Now my mom's up with no sleep She said she's gonna switch flights "I'm gonna come back tonight" "Mom I swear I'm alright" You and your sister are all I have so please... I know it was selfish I can't fucking help it Lost my girl and Momma Big sis off to College Dad going off to Florida All this shit is torture All y'all my supporters I've been going through some pain, I know that I needa change I got this pain in my brain, I know that I'm not the same... Momma it is not your fault Baby it is not your fault I'm the one that's in this vault I'm the one who made those scars I'm the one who made that call To put those pills down in my jaw I know that I'm not the same This day is how I changed Baby I am sorry Momma I am sorry Dad you know I'm sorry Sunny yeah I'm sorry TJ I am sorry Malik you know I'm sorry Ricky I am sorry Jad you know I'm sorry Jordan I am sorry Jerico I am sorry Baby I am sorry Nacho I am sorry I've been going through some pain, I know that I needa change I got this pain in my brain, I know that I'm not the same...