Loving The Enemy

Hello, I hate to interrupt the fun but I have to express The past couple of days I've spent basically goin through hell and back The devil promised that he would never ever stop fighting me To him I am the devil and that is so easy not to see You don't mind opening the gates allowing strangers in our sacred space Inviting traitors to a party to potentially destroy our place To leave their ugly traces and to desecrate my fathers grave While I'm collecting shards of broken mirrors just to save some face And just a moment later I am literally laughing out loud How dare I justify my weakness with excuses oh so proud I'm jailbreaking my mind To take a look behind My shell shocked self inside Unsure You are the consequence of every step I took on my light path A song without a goal, no destination and no aftermath I am so happy that I take the time and listen to my pain Cause pointing fingers at you is just like judging the sun, it is like blaming the rain Even though I am not sure you understand what I am going through Well, let me just say I'm learning to love myself through loving you I do admit I sometimes wish you would acknowledge all the courage it takes And feel the weight I'm lifting off my shoulders and the massive difference it makes There is a spark of fear of losing my mind but there has to be I don't wanna be wounded but I long for vulnerability I'm jailbreaking my mind To take a look behind My shell shocked self inside Unsure what I will find Baby I'm only a man Trying the best I can Breaking my heart all over Baby I'm only a man Tryin the best I can To reconcile with my pain Then breaking myself all over again I'm alone in the forest over candle light We agreed on you to break my heart tonight You're somewhere out there dancing with the enemy Choosing candy over my sanity I hope I'm not doing the devil any wrong Ignoring his whisper trying to keep me from singing this love song I'd set sail before but the stern would burst You only get so far without losing the anchor first I can't ignore the call of the sea anymore The perfect storm is blowing violently offshore I love you so much thats why I'm not coming back Cause I want parts of me dead So I lurk beneath the surface spying on my fearful voice Kindness is the weapon of choice I'm jailbreaking my mind To take a look behind My shell shocked self inside Unsure what I will find I'm jailbreaking my mind To take a look behind My shell shocked self inside