The Come Up

I'm on the search for salvation No, f*ck that - I'm on a fucking vacation I stay between wasting my time And lacking patience Devoted to destruction of self And self actualization Actively stay sick Sick of staying the same And waiting on a paycheck Rocked the boat sideways Woke up working grave shifts Feeling so elated When I make it out this basement The sunlight stings But it's better than complacence Which is better than the dark And that's better than the hatred And if I ever make it out Long enough to change things Just remember who I was When I made these statements So tell it like it is Like it once was Tell 'em what you think Where you came from Tell 'em how it felt To be so numb Waiting on the outcome Stuck with no income So tell it like it is Like it once was Tell 'em what you think Where you came from Tell 'em how it felt To be so numb Waiting on the outcome Stuck with no income 'Cause nothing's worth shit Without the come up And life is just a bitch Until you love her And everybody quits Until they trust her When you finally make it out They'll say he's just a "lucky motherfucker" And I don't lead the way I just saw it once No, I don't feel the hate I fear the cost of love I fear the fall from grace Far away from yesterday Where everything I thought I know Is buried in a shallow grave Somewhere off the coast of Spain Chasing validation While salivating dogs Beg for wealth allocations And the prettiest faces stay jaded The tongue sours the soul It's shown in the complaining So just get out my fucking face man So tell it like it is Like it once was Tell 'em what you think Where you came from Tell 'em how it felt To be so numb Waiting on the outcome Stuck with no income So tell it like it is Like it once was Tell 'em what you think Where you came from Tell 'em how it felt To be so numb Waiting on the outcome Stuck with no income