Birthday Blues

Wrote myself a birthday card The one where it's your birthday It was FRIENDS themed My comfort show and much more Wrote it one week prior to the 24th May my words blur in my mind It could count as a surprise So much mental preparation I told myself I wanted to spend it alone But the truth is I was afraid no one would show up I get even more sentimental on this day I do everything to avoid those birthday blues No self-pep talk can fill that void And save me from feeling those birthday blues I wanna pretend I'm one Of those people that don't care for it I'm one year older what's the big deal? But when I blow those candles I wish to be loved and celebrated I do I do So much mental preparation I told myself I wanted to spend it alone But the truth is I was afraid no one would show up I get even more sentimental on this day I do everything to avoid those birthday blues No self-pep talk can fill that void And save me from feeling those birthday blues I push away push away I delude myself into thinking the choice is mine See I need space I need alone time I don't need anyone Not even on this day Not even on my birthday The lines are blurred have you forgotten me Have I run away in the nick of time? Or are you hoping that you could be here with me? You didn't call my bluff M' I the reason I'm alone? I get even more sentimental on this day I do everything to avoid those birthday blues No self-pep talk can fill that void And save me from feeling those birthday blues