From The Ground

This is Captain Nadroj speaking I wanna let you know - We may be in for a bumpy ride this evening So, buckle up your seatbelts And we'll be off the ground here shortly They think I got it Figured out I don't even know What day it is And when they see me When I'm out I smile, but I'm faking it I stay up too late Every night I've got so much Shit on my mind Feels like I'm running out of time I tell myself that I'll be fine Smile like it's all okay But on my mind every day What if I flew away? Bought a one way What would you say? Packed up my car and Moved away And leave this life behind Start over Give me one more try Out of reach and Nowhere to be found My friend just Bought a new damn house I'm scared to Check my bank account Reach for the stars From The Ground I'm not perfect I don't pretend to be They say it'll all work out If it's meant to be I'm 24 My crisis Identity Comparing myself and It's fucking with me mentally I'm not down to settle For next best Even when I make it Don't think I'll be less stressed I lay in bed I probably should get dressed And start my day But I wonder if this is The way that I should go Maybe there's another road What if I flew away? Bought a one way What would you say? Packed up my car and Moved away And leave this life behind Start over Give me one more try Out of reach and Nowhere to be found My friend just Bought a new damn house I'm scared to Check my bank account Reach for the stars From The Ground I'm not perfect, baby Don't think I'll ever be If I left you tonight Would you remember me? If I'm supposed to be The man with the plan Then who the f*ck is steering this ship And what's our destiny? I'm missing calls just like I'm missing the old me Would I have kept going if Somebody told me - A boat is one thing, but Will it keep floating? I'm feeling lost Is this the way? Can you please show me?