If you relate to this im sorry

I saw a tear run down your face I took my thumb to wipe it off Me and you alone in this place A very special part of me was lost You told me loving me had got you lost You told me loving me had got you lost What did I do to deserve What you you did to me Butterflies on a perfect earth Is what you looked like to me Questioning my own worth (My eyes see you speak) Justify a rebirth (But my ears don't hear a thing) Why did you do that to me? Why did you do that to me? And I've tried to fill this void Since that loving side of me was lost Another way to fill this void Admit that loving you had got me lost But if I move on ill forget The feeling of losing you would make me sick Id rather sit through what you do to me Than move on from everything Self destructive in my ways And everyday ill feel the same And ill tell myself that its okay Since I can still see your face Why do I do this to me? Why do I do this to me? You hurt me in so many way You never wipe the tears off of my face Your never there for me The way that I'm there for you You never ask me to stay when you know I wanna die with you Its sad but its true You keep me around because its easy for you Is this all I am to you? Something easy to use? You told me loving me had got you lost Well loving you had got me lost too And why do you do this to me? And why do I let myself get used? I guess its both of our faults We push the blame but what did we expect I have no self respect And you are unable to self reflect Why do you do this to me? Why do I do this to me?