Falling for Pain

Why am I falling for something That always just seems to bring pain Like falling in love with the sunshine in may Cuz after the sunshine You know it still rains And everyone that passes by Reminds me how we change Can barely feel it anymore But I'm learning how to pray I'm screaming loud with open doors I'm falling hard with grace I keep losing my balance No matter which path I take Been tryna change my habits But they always stay the... But mother told me son It's okay to cry sometimes You've only just begun You have learn to crawl Before you ever try to run Have to take a breath Before you feel it in your lungs Can feel it in my lungs Can feel it in my lungs Maybe I'm bleeding But at least I'm breathing tonight How I know How I know I'm alive I know I'm alive I keep on falling for pain Drawing me in and then drive me insane But I just keep on running back to that Same old place There's comfort in the madness I can learn from my mistakes These rose colored lenses are Blinding my face I can put on a smile That don't mean i'm okay Memories they haunting me at Night while I sleep Wish I could stay strong but Alone I'm too weak But mother told me son It's okay to cry sometimes You've only just begun You have learn to crawl Before you ever try to run Have to take a breath Before you feel it in your lungs Can feel it in my lungs Can feel it in my lungs I can feel it I can feel it I can feel it in my lungs