Trouble Up Ahead Again

I sense trouble up ahead again At least it's self-inflicted I've got an answer to the problem No need to feel conflicted I'll pour a couple shots of Jager And chase them down with a few beers By now, things are looking up and I've forgotten how I got here Life's grand so I pour a couple more shots And make a toast to nothing I swear that this will be the last round But we all know I'm bluffing I'm slow dancing with the devil To a song we wrote together An ode to decadent behavior And a hymn for carnal pleasures Off the wagon on the only road that I know Such a comfortable way to watch the time go (So numb now) Another round for my thoughts I won't process A couple shots for my feelings when I'm off this (So numb now) Maybe there's past trauma that needs healing It's time to find a better way of dealing (All done now) All sense of moral obligation Seems to have been forgotten Hellbent on acting out of impulse Indulgence without caution It's clear that I cannot sustain this And maintain loving relations Refocusing on my forgiveness Rebuilding good vibrations Off the wagon on the only road that I know Such a comfortable way to watch the time go (So numb now) Another round for my thoughts I won't process A couple shots for my feelings when I'm off this (So numb now) Maybe there's past trauma that needs healing It's time to find a better way of dealing (All done now)