Comforting Lie

I started out on the wrong footNow I'm not myselfI am Jekyll, I am HydeFound this place to hideCome seek meOh, so up and downSo back and forthSo insecureCan't get this taste out of my mouthSwallow it downPretendHold it, hold it all inLet it build upBuild a bombBlow it, blow it awayClear it all outJust end itI'm just a normal personWithout those problemsWhen did it change?Admissions so embarrassingI'm on the verge of tears againHold it, hold it all inLet it build upBuild a bombAnd blow it, blow it awayClear it all outJust end itOh look I took the Band-Aid offDid I take it off too soon?Hysterical confessionMy big courageous moveDon't gasp at the predictableA comforting lie can't lastPreordained checklist of this awkward loveIt's so sadHold it, hold it all inLet it build upOh, build a bombBlow it, blow it awayClear it all outJust end itSort it, sort it outJust give it backNo thank youToss it, toss it awayEliminateJust give upI can't decideThis tug of warI'm feeling weak