Downfall

I still wonder, why I even try anyone I'm too sad, but can't cry anymore I got goals, but can't strive anymore I want change, but can't fight anymore It's my fault, can't even lie anymore It's too much, nothing feels right anymore Miss my friends, we're not tight anymore I can't see, there's no light anymore Being honest I haven't felt much lately I look up to God, need you to save me All of this pain it drives me crazy My emotions are constantly changing And society, all it does is drain me I pray for blue skies 'cause it's always raining I just want love, but I keep on hating My mind is lost and I'm just so anxious I'ma be honest no I'm not okay I feel new pain almost everyday I watch my feelings as they slowly fade And I watch my happiness go down the drain Yeah, I walk through life with terrible health Lately I'm alone, nothing is well People ignore me, but I need help So hard to be alive, man I hate myself I disappoint my parents, man I'm such a mess I love this girl, but now she's my ex Brother almost died, I'm full of regret I love my fam, but treat them like less I don't sleep at night, I could never rest Heart don't beat the same, it's left my chest I push God away every time I'm blessed Then I wonder, why am I so depressed Lately been planning my impending doom I don't get out the house, don't even leave my room I'm so indecisive, I can't even choose I'll never forget all of the abuse Scared I won't make it, but I gotta move I have no name yet, and so much to prove I have so much to gain and even more to lose I'm climbing up, you'll know me soon Look Call me Timmy Turner life's been fairly odd I feel like I been praying so much that I'm annoying God I pretend I am okay, but I know I am a fraud And I wish I was perfect, but I know I'm really flawed Nowadays when you die, people will applaud Wanna stream your music and the list goes on Want to be happy, but it's a huge cost And I want to be found, but right now I'm so lost I know I'll be okay I just keep my fingers crossed But lately inside I feel nothing but exhaust I wanna cry so loud, but it just comes out so soft Lately feel like I been stuck in the past Like no matter how much of this time has passed I still feel like my life just goes on too fast Like one day I'm happy the next it contrasts And I do not know how long this feeling will last That gave me a big epiphany That you can live a hard life to die so peacefully Lately I been feeling pain deeply And lately I been feeling sad weekly Wish that life was easy Walk around be cheesy Hope to get big one day like I am Wheezy Been feeling so heartless man shoutout to Yeezy I'll get recognition, change my life completely I just want people to hear me I just want people to cheer me And when they see me on the charts next to their favorite artists they should just fear me But all people do is just steer me Ahead of my time, like if I'm a preemie Call Robin Williams, I need a genie No Aladdin I am so stressed and this sadness just adds in Lately been so down, but nobodies asking Didn't know I was easy to abandon 'Cause I lost you I'm just starting to panic I think about you some more I can not stand it This plane is crashing no I can not land it I remember you was just my bad habit They left me on Earth alone, I didn't plan it Life is a picture through the lens of a Canon