Lies

I remember staying up reading our texts You had me up thinking bout what's next I didn't know love could be so complex I didn't know that it would have all these effects Can you please give me sign Every time I was with you I swear you just stopped time Now I gotta realign Now time just feels so short just like a vine I remember it was just you and me Now that love is dead and this is it's eulogy You had me out here just looking so foolishly You ripped out my heart and you did it brutally 'Cause I lost you I just feel like I'm losing me Ever since then I swear I just been dreaming so lucidly Everything that you did you did it so beautifully You said that you trust me but still accusing me And I am like wow How can you do this to me now It was supposed to be us And I was gon' hold you down Now you walk round with smile Had me looking like a clown Now I do not know how to act I wish we can just retract Was there just something that I lacked 'Cause now we do not interact And I do not know how we turned into this Being happy with you is just something I miss Not walking round with this temporary bliss You had me for a while and then you dismissed I hope life without you just as hard as it gets I have nothing left of us than to just reminisce And since you left That was the start My bed got colder And my room got dark We only got older And life just got hard Now I'm just an empty man With a broken heart You always loved to fight There's blood in the water Too much weight on me I won't make it much farther I keep messing up 'Cause I'm not much smarter Still gave you everything But you never bothered I'm talking to you Do you even hear me You keep looking away Can't see the issue clearly Stop walking away Acting like you fear me I'm tired of the games You can no longer come near me You never really cared You never showed sympathy This is my life You can no longer live with me I would die for you You would watch me bleed You're such a snake You bite the hand that always feeds I'm begging for some mercy I'm on the ground on my knees You never even tried You'd never do anything I still gave you my all Satisfied all your needs Treated me like garbage But still made you my queen Gave you the world I tried to do everything You looked at other guys Got mad at my jealousy I need to grow up Is all you kept telling me You're so full of lies Like when you said you fell for me I lost my heart I lost my mind I lost my love I'm dead inside I've lost sleep, almost every night I'm always wrong no I'm not alright It was just you and I in this big ol' world I was happy to call you my only girl All the moments that we had it was picture perfect I can't imagine life without you on this surface When I was with you I had the happiest expression I thought bout you all time you were obsession You lifted me up you were my ascension You broke me down and you caused a depression When we started off, there was no strife It was us forever in this life I don't even know why I even try To think of us anymore You left my heart so tore You left my feelings all sore I remember believing all those lies I swear I treated you like a first place prize But You treated me like i was in disguise Then I swear you just left me by surprise I remember feeling all those butterflies And I swear we was just on the rise The only time we was good when I closed my eyes So I had to wake up and realize There was actually no you and I Had me out here questioning like why Why can't you see I had the heart you had the key I can't believe That you can just go and do this to me I guess I was someone that you didn't need